So, I did a 5K today, and oddly enough, it's gotten me feeling a little out of sorts. I have been getting my workouts in for my first few weeks of the Couch to Half Marathon program, but I haven't been doing anything about the losing weight part. So, working up from just walking to now supposed to have jogged continuously for two miles a couple of times (which I have only succeeded in doing without walking once), and today the long run was to be a 3 miler, so doing a fun 5K event seemed logical. Here are some thoughts it generated, in no particular order:
1) Working out alone is comfortable, cathartic even. Running a fun, themed race alone is a little lonely.
2) It is easy to only compare yourself to yourself and your own progress when running alone. It is easy to feel reeeeeally poorly about being a BOPer ("back-of'the-pack-er") when there are so many hundreds of super fit people around.
3) My MapMyFitness app isn't working right anymore. I've suspected so lately, but this race confirmed it. This is a certified course and had the mile markers, and at the end of the race it said I had gone a lot farther, so not commenting on my time/pace yet because it wasn't real. When they post the results I will understand a little better- seemed like being amped up made me go too fast, but yet I walked a lot. We'll see. I'm gonna have to switch to Nike+ or something.
4) Running with this much extra weight on feels TERRIBLE. I'm building up slowly, but as such, you push yourself a little further each time, so it's never old hat or easy, it always feels terrible. I felt more terrible than I expected to for longer than I expected to today. That sucks.
5) I'm tired of feeling like this. Tired of feeling so tired, unhealthy, out of shape, large, self-conscious, etc.
Sorry for the downer post.