I took my “before” pictures yesterday, and I weighed in for my starting weight this morning, and I have debated back and forth about whether to share them with you or not. I’m all about letting it all hang out on this blog, but I’ve come to the conclusion that I just can’t do it (yet.) I will post my weigh-in results each week and apprise of my progress, but I just can’t blurt out the starting number yet, because although I’m comfortable among strangers, I’m mortified to admit it to friends. And I also don’t want to post such horrific pictures to stand alone- I can deal once there’s a work in progress to show alongside. Deal?
Why, why, why do the cravings for chocolate and junk food have to be stronger already on THE VERY FIRST DAY you resolve is the start day for doing better? WHY?!!! Is it because I didn’t have the time to go to the store when I had the energy and didn’t have the energy to go to the store when I had the time this weekend? And is it because of that not having gotten to shop for healthy food yet that I didn’t have a filling healthy breakfast to fend off said cravings and now also don’t have much in the way of healthy snack options with me? Why does taking better care of one’s self have to take so much work, and have such difficult repercussions if you don’t do it? Dang that is frustrating! I’m tracking my food, though, even if it is not entirely how I had planned to eat. I cannot afford to fall for the zillionth time into the perpetually recurring nasty cycle of using a slow start, slip up, or other imperfection as an excuse to derail and bail. That was a fun sentence; let’s repeat it again for good measure: I CANNOT afford to fall for the zillionth time into the perpetually recurring nasty cycle of using a slow start, slip up, or other imperfection as an excuse to derail and bail! And I am going to buy groceries on my lunch break, even though it is cold out and I feel tired and lazy. All the groceries I need, not just the bare few minimum things I need for dinner and the boy’s lunches, but truly suck it up and buy the food I need. I made a long list last night. Suck it up.
Oh, and one more bonus thing while I’m at it, and this is just a whiny complaint. Daily life can be such a pain in the ass. I enjoy what I do for a living, but once a week for half a day I am at the mercy of the general public for answering incoming questions. I can say that I have met some interesting people and have been asked some even more interesting (zoning) questions, but it is hectic, annoying, disruptive from other work that needs to get done, and it makes me want to eat. A lot.